Trying valiantly to finish the baby blanket by Saturday. I feel like I can get it done, if R. lets me work today and tomorrow. I'm having trouble focusing though, I feel really run down today. I'm back on my insomnia cycle right now, stress and anxiety triggered I think. I wake up having flashbacks and then can't get my mind to calm back down. I tried getting up last night, but R. wasn't resting well either. So I ended up staying in bed with him and eventually falling back asleep after a couple of hours, I lost track of the time. Lack of sleep makes me such an awful person after a couple of days. I'm mean to my husband on the phone, have NO patients at all with my child, no coping skills. I'm afraid to take anything because R. still sleeps with us, and wakes throughout the night. I don't feel safe taking a sleep aid. All that's to say, hopefully I'll get the blanket done. I'm at a point now that it's not as big as I would like, but it would be big enough if I didn't get much more done to it. Of course there is the finishing, but that won't be too, too much.
We've been getting a good amount of squash and zucchini from the garden the last week. So much I had to pitch a squash yesterday, and make some zucchini bread to use it up. I still have one zucchini left to use today or tomorrow. I have no idea what I'll fix for dinner tonight though. I've been having soup for lunch lately, and fish for dinner. I could kinda use a break from fish, but I don't know what else I might fix. Maybe spaghetti. I could use the zucchini in the sauce, and I have some lovely mushrooms. Plus R. will usually eat that. He hasn't been eating much the last few days.