Tuesday, January 24, 2012

While I'm Waiting (whiny tl;dr)

For my ibuprofen to kick in, I thought I'd update my blog. Seems like life has been full of little frustrations the last week or so. My knees are hurting again and being in pain all.the.time makes me cranky and irritable. It's hard for me to get around the house and chase after the kids. We still only have one working vehicle, so the kids and I are still stuck at home all day. It's been raining a lot, so we haven't been able to go outside much. B's not been sleeping well, so I've not been resting much at night. She's not even been napping that well. I have to nurse her down on our bed and sneak away. So my room is held hostage while she does nap, even though we moved her bed to her room a couple of weeks ago. She napped in her room just fine for months, but now that her bed is back there, she doesn't want to. She's also been very clingy the last few weeks. She has major mommy separation anxiety. Which is normal, she's 9 months old. But it's frustrating. I feel like I can't even get the basics done (dishes and laundry). I'm pissy and exhausted, and the house is a mess. I got 2/3 through a hat only to run out of yarn. I can't go back to the LYS in Macon until the 4th at best to get more of what I ran out of. I have no car to get there and no money anyway. We're trying to relist our house in Fayetteville as rental, and running into obstacles with that. I was hoping we could get it listed before the 1st, but that's not looking very likely. I'm also really lonely. I have no friends here. I've tried to make friends with the other younger mom at church, but that hasn't panned out at all. The spouses group for the AF wives sucks. I tried to get a yarn working group together, but no one was interested enough to make it happen. I'd like to be able to go do some of the classes and knitting groups at the LYS, but I can't leave the baby without her screaming the whole time, and she's still nursing a lot. Again with the separation anxiety.

However, on a positive note, J filed our taxes Friday and we're getting a really big refund this year, with the second mortgage, our move, and having a 2nd child. Almost 10k. We're still debating about what we're going to do with it. Both cars need work. J wants to put up some fencing. I need to pay off what we owe on R's dental work. And we'd really like to remodel our kitchen. Or we could pay off my loan with Sallie Mae. I'm thinking I might ask J to get me a Kindle for my birthday. So much to think about.

1 comment:

  1. Hang in there C, it'll pass eventually. I know that's not much help...

    Was great to see you and Joe and the kids last weekend -- I only wish it could have been a longer visit.

    I know what you mean about feeling lonely. Although the only thing I have any desire to do right now is be at home. I've felt displaced and burnt out since December 10th and it's starting to get to me. I think I live in the car these days.

    I hope things get easier for you soon, and that J at least gets his truck fixed because I know that would help.