Wednesday, June 20, 2012

lonely times

I miss living in a place where I have friends.  I know I've written about the suck ass spouses group here before, and how I've tried to give it a chance, but it's a 'square peg in a round hole' sort of sitch.  I've stuck it out because I really wanted to have a playgroup for the kids to be a part of; there for a while, I thought it might work out, and maybe I would make some friends.  We were going to events and I started to get to know a few people.  Then the playgroups petered out.  I don't know why.  They went from April 3rd until June 13th without having any playgroup events.  Just more and more of their goddamn starbucks coffee dates.  Well, now they've decided you have to pay to be a member.  I guess this will be the end of it for me.  I can't justify paying to stay in their lame group.  I'm sad honestly.  I feel like I don't know how to make friends, and I really miss the friends I moved away from in NC.  The one lady I tried to make friends with at our church seems to have left her husband and moved away from the community as best I can tell- she's gone at any rate, and certainly didn't let me know what was going on.  I so wanted that one to work out.  She was my only prospective friend.  I felt like I really tried.  But how many times do you have to invite someone over before they'll come by?  *sigh*

J's been talking about getting out in the spring (his current enlistment will be up), and moving us back to TN.  I've been sorta hesitant about it up until now, because I love our house and we'd have to sell it before we could move.  And thinking about moving again makes me want to cry.  But maybe I'd be happier living in a place where I know people and can feel connected and be part of a like-minded community.

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  1. Oh C, I'm so sorry you feel this way. I know how you feel and how isolating it is, especially being a SAHM with such young children.

    Can you start your own message board and plug it through facebook and such? *hugs*

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    1. I've thought about it several times, but I don't know that I have the energy to make it successful. there's a MOMs Club here, but its a lot of the same women from the group I just left.

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    2. I've heard mixed things about MOMs clubs. I think it's kind of cliquey, especially between the women who attend the host church.

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    3. yeah, I met a few of the women that attend and they weren't my type. We've been thinking about doing soccer for robbie this fall but i think joe might veto it because of the distance to and from the base. i'd like to find something closer to us.

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